Yesterday's visit

Yesterday we went to our last visit before the retrieval. We signed everything that we had to sign and finally our doctor said my LH levels are higher than it should, which means I could ovulate prematurely. At this point there is nothing we can do, keep going and on Monday check again, in case I have already ovulated we will have to cancel the whole thing.

I am trying not to lose my peace over this but I can't hide I am a little frustrated. My hubby seems to keep hopes up. I fear for him.

Today we got some more annoying news. They found a bacteria in my vaginal screen that kills sperm. Now I have to use a medicine called Metronidazole to make sure this bacteria don't interfere with anything on Monday. Wikipedia says 1 in every 3 women will have a vaginal bacteria at least once in their life.

I ask myself how did nobody ever checked me for that? More than 2 years trying to conceive, I'd think they would check me thoroughly before sending me for surgery or infertility treatments. Maybe this bacteria is a new thing. Who knows... Doctors should understand that the basis of their science should be first find the problem and then cure it and not try several treatments until they find a result.

Does anyone ever wonders how population grow being so hard to conceive? I've been thinking about it lately...

News on my IVF cycle

I finally met my doctor personally after months of Skype consults and emails translated by my husband. Well, I had a good feeling about him. He made the effort to speak in English, and his English was surprisingly good, there were a few American and German diplomas and certificates hanging in his office. I can feel he wants to help me and not only take our money away. 

In the ultrasound he found the “endometrioma” in like 3 seconds. I still wonder why no doctor ever mentioned it to me during my yearly examination, or that my American RE needed a laparoscopy to know if I in fact had endometriosis. In his opinion most probably my endometriosis wasn’t the problem since 1 in every 2 women he screens has it. 

He is a little disappointed that I only produced 4 eggs during the stimulation which made he think that during the 4 insemination-cycles I was either producing empty follicles or the quality of the eggs were not good (endometriosis plus high levels of prolactin are factors in egg quality).  He said that Clomid can be deceiving and that he does not use it with his patients. 

I am not really happy with the news but I am learning not to be devastated with infertility matters. I still have faith I will have children, if not now, at some point in my life. We decided that we will go on with the procedure. The doctor adjusted my injections doses and now I will be having 2 injections per day instead of one. Yay! It is basically the same dose but spread during the day, so we can imitate the body’s natural release of hormones. 

My very skilful hubby is giving me all the injections and doing a great job. It barely hurts, I feel a little light headed because of my fear of needles, but nothing major. First injection the poor guy was all sweat but now he is a true professional. 

Monday we will be doing the retrieval. We have to be there punctually at 8.30 am and I will be sleeping during the whole thing (thanks God). Cross your fingers for me please! :)

"Vacations" in Europe

Vacations are definitely not a time to rest. We have been from one place to another, visiting places, meeting friends and family members. I miss my routine already. Although, I do think I kind of disconnected a little from all my infertility issues. 

 

Last week we bought all the injections I will be starting tomorrow for the IVF procedure. I am so scared already. My husband will be the one administrating it. 

I am still using the spray Synarela. My only concern with this medicine is that I haven’t been taking it the same time every day. I don’t have a routine anymore and sometimes I forget to bring it with me. I didn’t feel much difference during my period while taking this medicine. I do feel like a burning sensation in my lower back. I have no idea what it is really doing but from what I read it is used to help endometriosis and before you start ovary stimulation. I thought I would miss my period, it was one of the symptoms Synarela may cause, but Aunt Flo came very inconveniently when we were visiting Barcelona.

Yesterday we had a little fight. We have a girl name that we like and sometimes we use it when toying with the idea of having a child. Between beers my hubby blabbered it out with his friends and I reprimanded him. He took it seriously and got really mad at me, saying I can’t make him hide things. I don’t think this is the kind of information you spread before even getting pregnant. Anyway, I guess it doesn’t matter anymore.

I am crossing my fingers and praying to God for this month.